Maybe I Cared Too Much…

Maybe I cared too much,

Maybe I loved too hard,

All I wanted to do was save you,

All I wanted was to take care of you.

But, here is the cold hard bitter truth:

I couldn’t save you,

I couldn’t take care of you,

But then, I ask, why did I want to fix you?

Was I too scared to admit that I wanted to fix you so you would fix me?

That by saving your world I would save mine, too.

I had it wrong,

I had to find me before I found you.

So here, I sit knowing who can help me;

Who can fix me.

A thousand emotions scream in me,

I’m tired;

I’m scared.

But, no longer do I have a choice,

This inward journey is the one I must take.

Time to look at the reflection;

Time to meet the one I avoided;

Time, now, to go home.

Zahir Khan